The Showers Bring Flowers

I think I need to write this blog post for myself. Quarantine has gotten the best of me. I have very little patience, and I’m beyond frustrated with myself because I am not the mother I want to be. These days have been long, and they’ve tested my emotional and mental sanity in so many ways. I feel awful complaining, and am so grateful for my family and for everything we have, but I am just very, very tired. Being tired makes me feel guilt. I have a vision of the kind of mother I want to be, and I feel like Ive failed because of how I have felt the last few months. I just asked my husband a little bit ago, “What am I doing wrong as a parent that my children are overly emotional, won’t eat, won’t listen, and whine and cry NON stop?” I legit feel like I must be parenting wrong.

I actually don’t even know what compelled me to write this blog post, other than that I wanted to be real, and express my vulnerability. So if you feel at all this way, you are not alone, and I sympathize with you.

I know that I can do better, but I also know that I WILL. I know that I need to allow myself GRACE. This whole life event of quarantining is new to everyone, and it’s hard with or without children. I am allowed to feel weak, frustrated, sad, angry, not myself, etc. I’m also trying to look at it as the saying “April showers bring May showers”…so I’m hoping Covid stress brings Healthiness? Eh? Good slogan or no? LoL. Thanks for reading my random posts, that are unedited and straight from my brain to the computer. When I have more mental energy, I'll attempt to edit my future posts. Until then, enjoy my ramblings and stay healthy. Miss you all! Let’s make some magic this summer!

xoxo

Brooke

Even when my children drive me crazy, it’s so sweet to know that THEY look at the “bad” and can find good in it. We look at rain as a nuisance. They look at it as a fun time to hold an umbrella, twirl around, splash in puddles, and find worms. I love this photo because it reminds me to appreciate the “less than ideal” situations and FIND THE GOOD in it!